I have just hit 40 and it has made me realize about life. I am confused and somewhat clear also. maybe a midlife crisis is about to set in and make me more miserable but I am not sure. remembering a lot of people today. a lot of places also. missing Islamabad also today. the Islamabad from the 90s. the time period is beyond me but it is hard to let go. maybe it is hard to let go of anything that was good. Am I the only one who…read more
So the layoffs news has been hot for a week, then it actually happened. The day is a heavy day. it feels like a horrible accident has happened and news of casualties is trickling in. The morning starts with “Is it happening today” the mid of the day is a tally of up to this many people have been laid off. The Day ends with “It’s a depressing day” The irony in all this is that fact I cannot see the logic behind it. There is the reason of budget cuts but…read more
My father is amazing guy. Even in his old age he inspires me. It is sad that i couldnt turn out to be the stronger and better version of what he wanted but i pray i still am able to make him proud.
Ohh what a place. I can write a book on it
Time is still moving forward and i realize i am now 38. What the heck. I spent all my adulthood after goals which are still goals. I wish to make a better futurw. I keep telling myaelf this for the last 17 years. Maybe i will keep sayibg the sane until i die.
Time flies by like a bird. It can never wait for me. It can never favor me. It has played me or i have played it. But it never stops for me. I wish i could change what i do. Change what i have done. But that will doesnt exist in my world for now.
When I couldn’t afford a McDonald’s meal. It was a luxury I thought beyond me. The same time a khaki pants from Walmart was off limits. When I did gather courage to buy one for less than 20$, I felt I had accomplished something in life. Looking back, I am forgetful and unthankful. Life is not about the latest cars or beat gadgets. I was more happy when I had that Walmart pants than now I can afford much better alhamdulilah. Never forget where you come from. Remind you soul…read more
Came across alot of “influencers” recently. What is amazing is that they not older than 25 or so. So what makes them an influencer? Apparently their last name. If you are born with a huge bank balance or family name or royalty. You are an influencer. You might not be capable of crap but you are an influencer. Hail to the losers.
I miss you with all my heart. I wish I could undo a lot of wrong doings. Maybe inshallah soon
All I have to do it push my self a little bit and maybe things will get better. Gotta put that extra bit in and maybe things will work out inshallah. Trying to be optimistic rather than a pessimistic will help me accomplish all. All is can do is try inshallah and Allah will help me rest of the way. But one thing that is critical is the faith in the all mighty cuz without faith in him I can out in 200% but that won’t make a difference.