Time is still moving forward and i realize i am now 38. What the heck. I spent all my adulthood after goals which are still goals. I wish to make a better futurw. I keep telling myaelf this for the last 17 years. Maybe i will keep sayibg the sane until i die.
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Time flies by like a bird. It can never wait for me. It can never favor me. It has played me or i have played it. But it never stops for me.
I wish i could change what i do. Change what i have done. But that will doesnt exist in my world for now.
Came across alot of “influencers” recently. What is amazing is that they not older than 25 or so. So what makes them an influencer?
Apparently their last name. If you are born with a huge bank balance or family name or royalty. You are an influencer. You might not be capable of crap but you are an influencer.
Hail to the losers.
I miss you with all my heart. I wish I could undo a lot of wrong doings. Maybe inshallah soon
All I have to do it push my self a little bit and maybe things will get better. Gotta put that extra bit in and maybe things will work out inshallah. Trying to be optimistic rather than a pessimistic will help me accomplish all. All is can do is try inshallah and Allah will help me rest of the way. But one thing that is critical is the faith in the all mighty cuz without faith in him I can out in 200% but that won’t make a difference.
I miss iaido. It was something I thoroughly enjoyed and was keen to get good at. I wish they start teaching it here one day.
I am done. I am defeated. Finished and in utter despair. Life seems like a waste, a failure on every level and magnitude. Disappointment to everyone who I hold dear and who held me dear. I thought using religion was my salvation but that is not the case. I have failed my self in believeing that a person like me could be salvaged from the disasters of life. wish I could disappear and be nothing. I could avoid these expectations and demands. But I cannot. I cannot go anywhere. All I can be is what I am at this point. A disappointment
This is the outcome of my experience now. Management loves graphs and color coded crap. We don’t care if it even works but as long as it does color graphs then that is fine.
God help me
due to their ignorance, they wont even say salaam, maybe they have something in their hearts that they are ashamed of or maybe they are full of themselves.
alhamdulillah i feel nothing against them and just didnt get a chance to say salaam to thim but then maybe he was avoiding me
Sometimes it is difficult to juggle life, how it is between different people, respect for all but sometimes it is difficult. I ask Allah to give me strength inshAllah.
Decisions is what makes a Person, gives them a future full of hope or despair. I have for a long time avoided decisions on certain matters but it is soon going to be a time when I will have to decide and move on.
I hope I do take the right decisions and get better at it, I just Hope ……